If you are adopting from China, and use the word ‘China doll’ in reference to your future daughter, and don’t know what is wrong with that…… Please, please take this time in the ever lengthening wait to READ SOME BOOKS on transracial/transnational adoption. Please read blogs about being anti-racist, please read the perpectives of adult [...]
Archive for June, 2008
Squirt: Mama, can you make the bubbles come out of the machine?
Me: Sorry, but it doesn’t work anymore
Squirt: Well, I know, let’s fix it!
Me: I don’t know how.
Squirt: Maybe when grandpa is finished with the angels and heaven and comes back, he can fix it. You wanna do that mama?
Me: Oh honey, I wish grandpa [...]
“Where are you going?”, I asked Squirt as she was opening the back door.
“Nowhere, I’m just opening the door so we can see the fresh air”, she replies.
“Um, you don’t want to go outside and breathe the fresh air?”
“Nope, I’m just lookin!”
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Me: Do you know why I love you so much?
Squirt: Because I am brilliant [...]
Tempest in a teapot
Posted in Adoption, Grief, Mental health, Mental illness, Squirt, Venting, WTF?? on June 19, 2008 | 1 Comment »
A member of the family suffers from mental illness. I am very sympathetic, and it breaks my heart that she has gone through so much and is often in so much pain.
But.
I have now been threatened by her. It makes me angry and defensive and I lose some of my empathy. I start thinking uncharitable [...]
Today was probably not the best day to go to church, with all the dad honouring stuff and such. I wanted to go to feel hopeful and uplifted, and I was just sad. It didn’t bring me hope, it just reminded me of what I’ve lost. Seems a few of the recent happenings in my [...]
Julia
Posted in Adoption, General, Squirt on June 6, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
If this does not break your heart… I just don’t know what will.
I remember reading something Julia said once about loneliness. It went something along the lines of “I’m a KAD, I KNOW loneliness”. It made me sad. It was like her light, her faith, her friends, her second adoptive family, could not fill that [...]
Punchlines
Posted in Adoption, General, Squirt on June 3, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Squirt: Knock knock.
Me: Who’s there?
Squirt: Patch.
Me: Patch who?
Squirt: Lemon flavoured pumpkin poo fuzzy belly button!
Me: ha? ha?
Squirt: Mama, I SO SO FUNNY!
Mara ~ why is ‘poo’ and ‘fart’ and ‘booger so freakin hilarious when you are four?
I miss my dad
Posted in Death, Faith, General, Grief on June 2, 2008 | Comments Off
today. A lot. Tears and everything. Sigh.
Part of it has to do with Julia I think. Dude, no one should die two days after their 25th birthday.
Part of it has to do with some family ick, that just struck me completely unsuspecting, out of left field.
Part of it has to do with medical stuff with [...]
